Her Majesty Queen Leviosa (hmm too formal), OP (hmm too impersonal), HMQL (just right?), I sincerely hope you do get some help with your mental health (MH), left untreated it quickly spiral out of control, you should be able to self-refer to your local MH Team but through your GP should speed up the process, possible delays due to COVID, but make it clear to them that you desperately need help, maybe your baba's health visitor could contact the MH Team too? If you're restricted for time there should be an online counselling service available to you where you chat online to a therapist once a week. Keep pushing for help, research group therapy sessions, mum & toddler groups, coffee mornings to get you out the house and with other people who you can talk to.
I had a almost successful suicide attempt January 2018, 2 days in hospital, 2 weeks volunteered holiday in a MH Unit, seen by the Community MH Team every 2 weeks for about 8 months, my Psychiatric Nurse knew how much I was struggling with depression & anxiety & no self-esteem, and that I was avoiding leaving my flat unless it was necessary, fearing seeing anybody I knew incase they asked me how I was or why I tried to end my life. But she got another job and her bosses discharged me because they thought I was well enough to not need their help anymore, they were wrong, I stopped leaving my flat & started to get all my groceries delivered & my meds delivered also, so I didn't have to leave my flat, except to empty my bin at 4am when I knew nobody would see me. I've been agoraphobic for about 18 months now, with no family of friends to talk to. The only human interaction I have is the Fab forums, I've given up on living my life & having a happy future, I just exist from one day to the next, with the smallest hope that one day I will feel better & maybe be happy again & have something or someone to look forward to. Don't end up like me... I'm fucked up! |